someday you'll find

At that time you both were almost all I had, almost all that mattered to me.

Right now I can't say the same but in my memories you were the only guy friend I needed. More than anybody, the one whose shoulder and hug felt so comforting.

It's allright, its okay. I'm not wishing for anything from the past and I'm not wishing to turn back time. Just looking at your smile brings me back to January back then.

Strangely, the significance of that day to me lies no longer in them but in us.

Although I won't be going for your commissioning parade, I want to say I'm happy for you. I always knew, and never doubted for a second that you would become commissioned as an officer. I'm happy for everything you've achieved. But that's about all I can bring myself to feel.

And now seeing the name Nathaniel Ng Li Wen brings no memories to me, and invokes no feelings in me. Hello, to my most familiar stranger.