someday you'll find

I haven't dreamed of you in so long, Dan! Hahah. This one was pretty cute, because there was a bouncing baby who had the sweetest laugh and literally.. bounced. It was kinda weird. She bounced so high her head nearly hit the ceiling.

And then there was Ada. I know why she was in there, because it felt the same as that day.

Jeff was also there. In fact, the entire Parlour was there cos in my mind, it was staff party day (which is next Monday in reality! :D) and then we all got drunk and passed out in the restaurant?! Maybe we got drugged!

Oh and there was Chris. I remember now, it was the 30th of December. I remember I had something to tell Chris, when we were like tipsy and everyone had passed out already. I said, can we go out after this? And he was like, 'Oh you wanna spend New Years Eve together?'

Hahaha. It's not convenient to discuss his tone and my feelings here, but I'm just going to say it means nothing to me at all. CHRIS YOU'RE DAMN STUPID HAHAHA. Please go and die in Cairns.

And there was also you.

You made it a nightmare.

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I read my diary today. Apparently in April/May, I felt "a liberating sense of relief and an inexplicable excitement" at the idea of liking someone here. I guess that's where it all began. The first time I experienced the exhilarating rise in heart rate, the uncontrollable giggles, and the 'I can't stop smiling when I think of you'.

More importantly, I thought I was safe. Safe from the hallucinations