someday you'll find

wertevs.

I think I've gotten clever enough to realise that "see you later" actually means "see you when it's safe to meet", which is also equivalent to saying "see you when no one else is around" which basically leaves nighttimes or weekends during both of which we're generally not free.

Yup and so conversely you may say that I'm not stupid enough to go to another person's class to retrieve an assignment I lent them, or expect a decent conversation at all.

And I also think I've gotten desensitised enough to find it perfectly normal to not have eye contact in school: It's even odd otherwise. x) It's sad that my Year 5 Sem 2 life has only started to fall into routine when there's only a few weeks of school left - 1 week of lessons to be exact.

Next year will be busy; with the solo recital to prepare for on top of my make-or-break grade 8 exam. AND I really want to take Grade 6 next year so I REALLY shouldn't be taking such a long break from violin. I'm going to look for a teacher by next weekend, I mildly swear. Right. And APs, for a while I thought I was free of them. I found out that AP Bio is not compulsory and apparently neither is AP Stats. So what the hell, I'm free. But I think I'll still take them.. I really ought to decide soon - But I really don't think I'll do well for Bio. AND I need to take AP Chem too - shitsorz.

Sometimes you have to find what's really important for you in order to get rid of the fruitless time you spend on other things. Like my Facebook quote goes, "Don't make someone/thing a priority if they only make you an option" or in some cases, only claim to deem you a priority.

Eunice asked me what would I wish for if she could grant me one wish (she can't, but still), and I was a bit dumbfounded cos I've stopped answering those questions since I was a kid. I was going to ask for food since I was hungry, or I could have asked for an unfattenable figure/weight (insert eyerolling smiley), or something else more personal which I wouldn't have said aloud but I told her I couldn't answer it cos I'm a greedy person.

Moments later, I just said I wish I'd be satisfied with whatever I have at present, and that statement alone gave me a sense of being at peace with myself. I love being in the knowledge that all I need is God. And his plan for me. x) (Lol at Charmaine and Andre's group talking about PreCog and predestiny for english discussion test.)

Lolz. Muackz to everyone. Happy Jo is not going for CCA. Training laterz can't wait.. I think. I NEED TO BUY TIGHT WHITE SHOES. And coming back to hostel after that sigh. Sleeping alone is scary. But Ameera is too! Hee.

Don't you whatever me.

Labels: rants

posted by jallyre @ 4:21 PM