Lol Eugenia and Derrick said the same thing abt my post about Chuting's entry.
Am I
that retarded otherwise?
Okay I guess I am. x)
Anyway haha Boqqie (just read your LJ), I didnt even say anything about it! I just.. mentioned it. And wrote like 2 sentences about what I feel at the end. It summarises your feelings? I'm honoured HURHUR.
It's telepathy I tell you.
And our "omg-I-think-we-might-get-the-same-score" thought. x)
Won't happen can you're quite a lot smarter.
NVM HAHA we can just emo one korner with one suckshit essay scores and laugh about it 10 years later.
Hello peoples reading my blog.
I mean there's only that few of you but yeah I'm talking to you.
(Ada, Ameera, Elaine, Eunice and whoever feels like replying)
What's your budget for grad trip again? Like, regardless of duration.
Andand choose b/w Europe and Aussie please. (Different climate)
I'm selfish you seeeee so I'll just see what my friends want HAHA.
Who cares abt poor people who can't afford. :(
(PS OMG I just realised the above names are in alphabetical order! OMG. I'm so innately talented.)
personally, i think intelligence has many wings. there is the ability to be witty and sharp, the ability to focus for long periods of time, the ability to grasp concepts very quickly, and most importantly (to me), the ability to make moral decisions about what is right and what is wrong. all these things require the brain to be functioning and are all at least important. but as karen said to me, singapore and by extension singaporeans have such a narrow perception of what intelligence is, it's so rigidly delineated and institutionalised, and it's such an easy way out, because it's so definitive: if i get a good score or a grade, then i can be absolutely sure that i am 'good.' but i think it's better to make the choice to view human beings' 'intelligence' as more complex than that. so maybe the problem here isn't that you've lowered your standards, but they were limited in the first place, and that you need to fix them instead of fixing your SAT score.-Hoh Jian Yang.
I still remember being on 156 with him one fine day in sec one. And getting off at the same stop, and watching him walk ahead in front of me and noticing that his right bag strap was almost torn and hanging onto his bag by a few thin threads. And that his bag had his initials written on.
Well.. I saw him again recently, he's really tall now. And much less of a twit than what I thought he was then. Many years ago.
This was written as part of his response to Chu Ting's LJ entry about her lack of response to her 'regressed' SAT score.
Man am I proud to have friends like them who are so able to articulate their feelings, and word them so aptly. I must say that clearly, her SAT result of 2100 (in comparison to others who do better) means nothing to me as I (and many others should) acknowledge the fact that she had the brains and metacognitive thinking ability to confront the issue. And the insightful people who commented on her posts.
I'm impressed, truly.
Makes me wish I never left GEP. Oh wait, when have I ever stopped wishing that? Sometimes I think maybe if I stayed I could be like them. (Though I was never one of their circle except at a few points of time.) But I doubt it. And that statement in itself, that I doubt it, is proof that I have lowered my standards for myself and settled for the fact that my brain and intellect has degenerated.
Disappointing?
Much.
Too ashamed to announce to the world but..
Hi pals, I haven't got the strength to emo about my SAT score.
Let's just assume I'm happy about it! :D
I love you guys.
(I'm not upset about it, really. (: I was prepared enough.)
And I will love you regardless of your score! (To Jacque, Ada, Boqqie, whoever!)
When the music fades, and all is stripped away
It's unfair.
But I'm happier now.
William Shakespeare said
Love asks me no questions,
And gives me endless support.
The reason I wake up, and the reason why I can't sleep
Don't promise me forever
Don't promise me the sun and sky
Don't pretend to know you'll never make me cry
Just hold me now
And promise me you'll tryI woke up today to a pleasant surprise.
Sometimes I fall asleep wondering what I did to have a block of wood for a boyfriend. But times like this, I wake up wondering what I did to deserve such a forgiving and sweet you.
I love how we always misunderstand each other, but somehow still manage to feel loved.
I love how we end up doing the stupidest things together and laugh about it later.
I love how you listen to my every word, and accept all of me.
I love how you somehow manage to do the sweetest and most unexpected things when I'm at my most insecure/furious/upset point.
I love the fact that you're you, and I love every moment together, even if some of these moments are painful.
I love how you make my life so complete.
I can't promise to be always happy and smiling, and I know this is just the beginning of the roller coaster of our lives, but I promise I'll be holding your hand and sitting through the ride with you all the way.
So just promise me you'll try.
Hi peoples. I think I found my prom dress.
It's affordable I swear. Just, donate me some money will you.
Felt much better after talking to Gabriel and hearing what he said.
Then I felt that it was really bad of me la.
But well I guess I either got blocked or he just doesn't wanna talk. He said talk tonight though.
Hmm.
Tomorrow's one of the 3 days this whole holidays that I have the whole day really FREE. And the only one with no plans at all.
Wonder if I'll end up spending it at home..
How many times can a heart be wounded.
Everyone I've been talking to these days (quite a hell lot of them) knew how badly I was waiting for Sunday/Monday to come, cos Dan would be coming back.
I dont think I've looked forward to a day as much as I did, for a long while.
And yet this is what I get.
Sometimes I feel so stupid, how whenever I go somewhere nice I'll actually sincerely wish he was with me too. And I'll miss him and want to go home quickly to see him.
But no, he's always so absorbed in his own life. I really wish he just stayed in Kinabalu now, seriously. At least it didn't feel so painful when he was.
The worst thing is my friends were all so "no la, he's not that bad. Maybe he's just blahblahblahblah." until I said that he was online for 8 whole hours and didnt even talk to me ONCE and when I said something, the only things he could reply with were "haha ok" and "ooh ok". Wow. How eloquent.
[23:02:49] ______: how come he nvr ask u what u did during the holi?
sianz.... i know i have no right to say anything bad abt
daniel since i am not his gf but its just not right???
lol... =X
and Hari, who was so actively defending Daniel, said "that's just weird. do you want me to go talk to him?" If Shaun knew he'd go IM Daniel too, haha. Like last timeeeeeeee!
[22:45:19] ______: u know.... i kinda expect tt dan would say he wish
he is back in kina
[22:45:35] ______: haha.... but ytd see u so happy... dun wish to
disappoint u
It felt so horrible to hear that. But I'm glad I have fabulous friends.
Talked to both BFFs recently. We're so unclose in the holidays! x(
And Shaun and Hari made me happy with stupid Youtube videos.
And my ______-__ with black nails!
And Mira's been a darling talking to me online. And Bots too.. ish. Think she's been busy raping Peter Ho in her mind.
And unlike some people, Jacque-my-no1-girlBFF actually bothered to call me ytd morning after piano. And we talked on the phone for like almost 2 hours. It's not the calling part, it's the
talking part. Yups. Well guess what, she doesn't wish she was back as much as you do. Will you ever live in the present.
Yups. Friends are always great anyways.
hey holidays have been good.
finally, the break.
even though i'm still effing busy but i haven't felt so relaxed since last december.
i'm not even bothering to use capital letters wow.
dan's coming back tomorrow yay.
i moved tuition to today so i should be free tomorrow afternoon.
life never felt so good.
i'm really jumpy about junior cats meeting later omg.
trying to create a blog to house all the rants that i'd rather not trouble you guys with reading, but the new blogger layout html editting is a total bitch.
anyway the other day i was talking to mira and we were on the topic of neoprints (omg SQUEEZE) and suddenly i got inspired to take glamour shots. since my convocation is farfar off (and really, it's just DIFFERENT to take photos in the graduation gown) and my wedding is even further.
i wouldn't mind taking a personal portfolio! but i wanna take the couple/friends one too! havent found a bff to take with yet though. maybe after uni.
SHIT still haven't signed up for driving lessons so screweeeeeed so is private REALLY better than school?? *confused* i really wanna pass soon.
http://www.stjohnfraser.org/Michael%20W.%20Smith%20-%20Friends.mp3 Packing up the dreams God planted In the fertile soil of you Can’t believe the hopes he’s granted Means a chapter in your life is through But we’ll keep you close as always It won’t even seem you’ve gone ’cause our hearts in big and small ways Will keep the love that keeps us strong And friends are friends forever If the lord’s the lord of them And a friend will not say never ’cause the welcome will not end Though it’s hard to let you go In the father’s hands we know That a lifetime’s not too long to live as friends. With the faith and love god’s given Springing from the hope we know We will pray the joy you’ll live in Is the strength that now you show But we’ll keep you close as always It won’t even seem you’ve gone ’cause our hearts in big and small ways Will keep the love that keeps us strongI love all of you, Junior Cats!
From deep down inside.
I don't even like this song, but it's practically
our cheesy song.
It's a really blessed thing to share these friendships, formed in God's name.
I've always had a hard time thinking whether or not I want to study overseas. Many times I just tell myself I can study in Singapore and then do my postgrad overseas.. I really don't know, but I know one thing's for sure, that I've a bunch of friends who'll hold the doors wide open to welcome me always.
Karina..
And friends are friends forever
If the lord’s the lord of them
And a friend will not say never
’cause the welcome will not end
Though it’s hard to let you go
In the father’s hands we know
That a lifetime’s not too long to live as friends.This is so true. We'll always be welcome back. (:
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You are mine.
http://www.catholicgarden.com/mine.midI will come to you in the silence I will lift you from all your fear You will hear My voice I claim you as My choice Be still, and know I am near I am hope for all who are hopeless I am eyes for all who long to see In the shadows of the night, I will be your light Come and rest in Me Chorus: Do not be afraid, I am with you I have called you each by name Come and follow Me I will bring you home I love you and you are mine I am strength for all the despairing Healing for the ones who dwell in shame All the blind will see, the lame will all run free And all will know My name Chorus: Do not be afraid, I am with you I have called you each by name Come and follow Me I will bring you home I love you and you are mine I am the Word that leads all to freedom I am the peace the world cannot give I will call your name, embracing all your pain Stand up, now, walk, and liveFabian said "Good job Joanne"! Haha.
I still feel bad for writing their letters so slipshod-ly cos I thought they were mad at me.
I love my formators although essentially all they do is laugh at me. x)
I don't want to graduaaaaaate.
From JC or NUS High.
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I just came home from CC2 camp.
Will edit with photos later. I actually managed to snap some, mostly today.
Heh I always love camps.
Always.
I'm so sad that I had to leave this camp twice, in between.
I love my friends. A lot. Our friendships are so non-superficial. (See, SAT makes you stupid. I forget all my words immediately after the paper. There's another word for superficial okay that I knew long before SATs; that your stupid asses would never known in a million years.)
I'm going for my first tuition class with some kid living at Empress Road soon. Sigh.
There's always that quandary between eating and studying, eating and exercise, and exercise and studying.
Like I could be going for a walk with my dog tomorrow in the day time to maintain a healthy lifestyle and waistline (instead of having flabs spew out below my abs), but no - I should be attempting the only form of SAT preparation I can get, some online practice test. And so once again, after the dinner I had at home, the huge yummylicious dinner at JJ's house and dinner
again at home, this time with 5 more extra greasy oil soacked chicken wings and chocolate bars, all I can do is go to bed and do nothing but allow my body to turn into a blob of blubber.
Joanne you disappoint me.
22-26.
Got scolded for CC1 camp stuff cos nobody remembered about the magazine and newspaper stuff.
And Daniel was a disappointed about Greg's behavior (staying in the room to study) at the barbecue. And I guess all in all, I was really totally at fault and guilty of everything everybody said.
We're supposed to reach out to each other, and all along I've always just been on the receiving end, as Twinny, Karina,
everyone just ask me about whether or not I'm stressed and stuff. (Haha, sad though they ask me that all year round.)
I didn't see Bryan for super long too until today. I think Bryan and Fabian are in charge of us for the CC1 camp. Uh oh. I dunnooooo I really dunno I don't want to disappoint anyone, especially my formators. And Anthony just sounded so upset just now. Maybe he should have just treated us the same way he did the previous batches after all.
Rushed from the meeting to the SKM finals at Ngee Ann City and just chopped peoples' hands as they collected stickers for voting. And ate like half a zillion Gardenia raisin buns. Free flow man, I ate 14 while chopping hands. And took one of their packed dinners too (which was so yum) though I was late and missed dinner haha.
Well congratulations to all the VJ Knights. The uniforms looked fab and I guess though I didn't really watch the two teams, they must've been great. (The stunts that I did see for the stunting team all went up though! Nice.)
Lol she told me not to be subtle.
Sigh, I still can't really believe that it was the chatlogs haha. And I told Gabo she (as in, nobody) would never do such a thing, that it only happens in TV serials lol.
Oh well! It's great that it happened. That's the only way nothing's kept from each other anyway HAHA. Okay, morbid me. Lub eus, don't mean all that anymore sigh. I just want to throw the horrigible me all away, into the past where it belongs.
On another note,
I GOT A DOG?!
It's my little bundle of joy, in the form of a 2 year old brown furred maltese named Kiki.
Although it's like ten million times closer to my brother who brought it home and lets it sleep in his room.
Well I got pissed yesterday though cos Korkor didn't bring it out to relieve itself, and then he had to go out so he locked Kiki up in the cage and Kiki ended up shitting and peeing inside the cage and the poor baby was whining and clawing at the cage door all night and I was wondering what was wrong until I went to check. Blah. Irresponsible freak.
I want to play with Kiki now but it's in Korkors room. I'm not really close to him so it's weird.
Anyways.
Dan's leaving for KL with his family today cos his Mom has to do some stuff up there, then they're going to meet the rest of the church directly for the retreat. How cool, it's like a whole church thing. At a hotel. Haha, sounds like some gathering for a wealthy church. Guess I'm used to actual QT packed retreats. Siannnn next weekend shall be my 2nd last camp as a junior catechist.
Well for now, I'm quite sad that Daniel's going away from today till Thursday, then I'll have CC2 camp from Thursday till Sunday. We won't even see each other at SAT cos he stupidly signed up for somewhere else. I should've signed for AJC. Then I can pay someone to sub me and nobody would even know?! Anyway yeah and after that from Thurs to Sun he'll be going with ODAC for Kota Kinabalu trip
and if I don't ask him to go out we probably won't. We definitely won't, I mean. But he knows I will. God, I feel so desperate.
CAN SOMEBODY ASK ME OUT SO I WON'T HAVE TO GO OUT WITH THE NUTHEAD?
Gotta book driving soon - OMFG I'M LATE FOR CHURCH. Byebye.
