And so today marks the first day of my holidays. Well, sort of.
Although as the day progressed I became slightly lost, but still.. it is a happy day. If I sound convincing.
The similarities make me sad. I don't even know why. Maybe I'm just choosing to see them, but some are just so painfully obvious. But they're still different.
Someone's got a knack for recognising people from school. Our level, too.
Anyway thank you. Times many.
nay. wrong idea. totallllly.
will someone just do me a favour and clarify. tell the whole worldddddd.
we erm dont even talk yes. not much.
Wheeee.
Someone box me please. The scale at home tells me I'm 50kg, after an entire morning of laksa too. Oh, please, time to get a new one. But it feels good to actually see myself at 50kg for once. Lawlz.
I'm going a bit cranky. I missed JC today. Craaaap. And violin exam is STILL tomorrow. Craaaaaap. Well I guess you could say I should be getting happier cos Tioman field trip is next week but still - there's a
Ecology Test on Wednesday. That's like the scariest thing cos that's the class I completely don't take notes for and don't even print notes. Gahh. I mean, I take notes because I don't print them. Sigh. And there's so much to cover - We haven't even had a single quiz! Heh. Miraculously I don't think I've failed anything to date, except that one math quiz in which my feelings were brutally cheated. Well and probably the assignments I didn't hand up. (:
Well yeh, we've all been looking forward to the field trip since forever so I'm glad it's finally here. And my parents tried to make up for not being able to book a cruise over the national day holiday, and asked if I wanted to go on one after Tioman. I don't know, I wouldn't mind - I just don't see the urgent need to leave Singapore right now. So yes, I think I'm skipping a nice little holiday to go shopping with someone for his red shirt and my new bag and other stuff. Like my NUM tank. (:
AND STEPHhhh. Have fun while we're at Tioman. And seriously, don't ask Nic along. (: I think we're going to watch Ratatouille
before Tioman. :D Maybe. =\
And apparently someone thinks Rush Hour will still be showing after we come back. Fine if it isn't I'll just have fun biting off someone's head.
Labels: movies, rants
ONE MORE WEEK.
I was with parents lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
):
Minahhhhh.
Anyways, Sentosa was good yeh. The whole event was pretty well organised, thank you Ms Yong. (: Whoohoo T SHIRT TAN. I've never had such a thing. Well maybe I have but.. Haha well it's a double tan. I can't believe my
back tanned in that few minutes. But oh well it's not like it's very obvious.
Ameera has this warped idea that Jo has abs. Lol. BB does. =\
Yesterday was like, super suay, like?? No Rush Hour 3 for Jo. Like zomgbbq. I'm not angry, really. It's just major disappointing. Well at least I'll quit whining about wanting to watch it. It's become so much of a novelty. I probably wouldn't even enjoy it as much if I got to watch it now.
Andandand well. Omg. (: It's a good omg.
Sometimes some people are just the cutest people ever.
Baking class was bad. I baked the worst cakes with the best ingredients and erm, hurt my ankle. Sigh.
Don't mind this highly disorganized post - I'm trying hard to take my mind off Monday's violin exam.
Labels: rants
good day!
hahah. yay. baking class was good today.
like where do people get the idea that i'm in cheer from? nobody would want me back la please. :D
but i'm happy so it doesn't matter. and dont go around spreading rumours about me being in cheer because that's where you're wronger than a rotten nut.
haha i'm happy today too because of something else, kinda. i'm
not dependent. :)
BAAAAAAAKA.
runny noseeeeee. haha. yeh its been running a marathon.
but it got better during class. isn't that great? i just knew it.
ah mannnn. life's good.
(and if you're cold please wear a jacket even though it's totally uncool.)
Labels: cheer
Dear Blog,
I love my brother. He's insanely clever and tall and just.. my brother. But sadly, those are the only good things I can ever say about him. Because otherwise, he's a complete.. freak of nature, failure at life, everything bad. Don't even
begin to think that I'm being harsh or unreasonable when I say all this, because if you were me you'd be calling the police everyday of your life, or writing in to the mental hospital. Or packing your bags to migrate and packing your parents with you as well.
But of course at this point of time I
can't pack my parents with me cos they'd obviously stay with my brother. YOU KNOW IF YOU'RE EVEN READING THIS, MOM AND DAD, I feel totally
ecstatic about being loved only when you decide that korkor should be given up on. It was a fun year, living like an only child and away from that guy.
-
I was okay just now, really. After Gareth message me right after I changed my nick. It's gestures like this that make me realise, yep it must be the church friends after all. :) The whole time I was dying to message twinny about it, but someone else messaged me first so I just vomitted the whole story out to that poor person haha. Oops. I hope you had a great dinner.
Buhbye.
Love,
Emo #1.
you know. this is really weird. since my post 2 months (has it even been 2 months?!) ago about the transformers thing, in every post, there's some form of mention of this.. object. and it's like. i just read through all of them and realised its kinda entertaining how increasingly important this thing has become to me.
okay that totally wasn't meant to make sense.
i'm a proud carrier of the 'malfuncton'-ing phone disease! that makes communication so absolutely convenient, yes. i bet it's the revenge from various people for my phone's DINGDONG ringing during class all the time. ): haha WELL.
someone says i dont bother dressing well. hello i openly admit to wearing rags. -.- haha i hope this isn't too weird but i think i'll dress decently tomorrow. not exactly very decently but, decent enough. i dont even know where we're going. and yes ask derrick along will you. idiot.
i'm missing baking tomorrow. haha i'm addicted to the sweetness of it all. harlis everytime never reply my sms one la.
My violin practise is not getting anywhere. I feel like I'm getting into a slump more and more.
Buck up, Jo.
So anyway to cheer myself up I went to Bugis today - erm. Although I did think of going to Queensway to get shirts. But that's a different matter altogether. Haha. Anyway. It was decent cheap fun. I came back feeling even worse.
I'm thankful for my friends of course but sometimes it's not really what you need.
Jo needs to do well for her music exams. Right.
hi
我怀念的 是无话不说
我怀念的 是一起做梦
我怀念的 是争吵以后
还是想爱你的冲动
Holy Cross is so serene now. I mean, with the air con installed and all that mass doesn't seem as rowdy as it did when we went for Ash Wed mass last year. Or maybe it's just that more people went for that mass. Oh well. Thanks mom for reminding me. Heh.
I think I only reached at like, the gospel. Haha. Sigh. And I wore slippers too, but I guess it's fine since they're presentable and new, and I was wearing jeans. At least the formators aren't here to catch me. =\
It was only during mass that the reality of Ms Teo leaving hit me. More than going to the airport to send her off, I feel like we should have used that energy to be better students in the two years that she's been here. It's like, all the little times she nagged at me about my sloppy attire, my feet on the table, my bad thermodynamics grade, everything - I'm not saying I would have improved on that, cos that's probably the reason why I'm so loved by Ms Teo. But it's like when she was nagging at me, I just wished I could disappear.
And even when she said she was going to leave, it was her model students who were emo-ing and whining and since she told us, I barely spoke to her at all. It's just kinda weird. Oh well. It's something of the past already. Just like a lot of things today lol. Goodbye.
But anyway I was pretty confused by the homily (lol I just typed sermon). I mean surely you don't have to go to the extent of saying that other churches only sift out the good stuff of Jesus and omit the rest? I mean.. I don't know. It's weird.
我想说，这几个月来真的谢谢你。
因为有你，生活的每一天仿佛变得更有光彩。
随着我日渐衰退的记忆力，我也会跟着忘记之间所有的回忆。
可是曾经和你是朋友的事实，我真的不想忘记。
Labels: church, rants
Sending Ms Teo off
Baking class was good yesterday. As usual, it always is.
I like to dance yes. -.-
BB~~~ and everyone else. Is so pro?! How is it even possible.
Well and after that we had supper at Macs cos I thought like, Eunice and I were either completely not going to airport or leaving at 3. But like at 11 she said the guys were going and blablabla some mess ensues and I was like, completely intruding on the committee meeting. Lol. Pinky YQ and Jo were sitting at the side emo-ing. And YQ and Jo even sms-ed for some shrill alarm thing okay. -.- How spazz.
Anyway yeh so I rushed down to the MRT station and like refrained from peeing in case I missed the train, and good timing also meant that I managed to catch the train the others were on. Thankfully they waited for Eunice, I guess - in a sense. I thought it was only the guys and my classmates, but I turned around and saw Clement JJ and Daniel, and after we got off the train I saw a lot more people. Well, I wasn't in the best of moods considering I hadn't showered. But erm yeh, after a while it got better. (:
Like when we got to the airport finally, Jo and Eunice went around exploring the oh-so-interesting nighttime T2. I didn't wear my specs, so I couldn't really see the runway well but. We did have a good time watching the people (probably at transit) sleeping. Strange huh. There was this really interesting guy.. Haha.
Anyway so it was just the four of us at Starbucks, watching Harold and Kumar - which was what the others were doing at Macs downstairs. Anyway we actually managed to watch it for like a few minutes? But the sound was bad and there were no subs. And Bryan was staring at gays and Eunice was fascinated by witches. So yeh, we just drank our coffee (DEEEEE I drank coffee!!) and ate our cheesecake. (Yay ADA! It's like 5.70 now. GST FTW!!!)
Haha, well and then we walked around for quite a while and when we got back, it was time to meet so yeh, that's about that. I wouldn't say its exceptionally fun, but it gave me my well deserved eye bags. Kinda.
Thanks for the shirt anyway. Bryan.
Anyway chamber just ended. Life's pretty miserable. We're getting somewhere; Ben and I spent about an hour just playing our parts together kinda. I'm so thankful. I feel like I know my part the slightest bit better now. Violin exam in one and a half weeks. Go Jo.
Labels: random
yay.
an insult is not an insult if you choose not to accept it. conversely, that person keeps the insult to himself or herself.
not that i mind people saying fuck, since i do use it quite often (-not- like water or anything that unviscous allright. i dont.) myself. but please do exercise some restraint over your very H self. you BI. FB. UH. anything lynn would come up with.
i dont see whats the point of talking nonsense about jo anyway - it doesnt really affect me. i mean hes just another one of your gang of friends, just not as short. and honestly, i feel sorry for him.
so yes. please. go on and continue living your life as scum and maybe one day you can move and live near me in my little slump and we can all be scum together. freak.
lately the stress of the exams have been washing upon me in strong waves. like a tsunami, except there's no calm before the storm. its like things are getting worse and even if you know it, you can't stop it. how sucky.
firstly if you're going to step on my wrist and probably might've snapped it if i weren't so fat, at least have the decency to say sorry. naybermind. i dont need apologies since they're not going to make my wrist any better.
and no, no, who the hell needs a functional wrist to play the piano or violin anyway?grats eunice your exam is over. you'll do perfectly well. i hope you get a distinction. jasmine too. yeh. i'm fine with a .. well. haha. double merits? if possible huh. i wonder. i'm sorry dr wong and dr teo for the horrifying scales. and i'm losing my voice. maybe i should just not talk for the next month.
Labels: music, rants, school
national day holsss
can you believe he
did that. :(
i'm beyond flabbergasted.
anyway. this national day holiday sucked.
i missed class for the FIRST time. for umbrellas. and he. -____- ugh.
mom owes me 35$ OKAAAAAAY. i don't CARE. i'm 2$ rich now. yes, i'm so going to have 1000$ in 50 weeks time. sure.
at least i had pizza on thursday morning. but no that only served to make me more miserable. bloody constants.
lets see.
the downs math test. bio quiz. chem test. eco assg due.
the ups none. RUSH HOUR NEXT WEEKEND. hopefully. better be.
haha sigh. i cant stand itttt. i was never very good at controlling my emotions, but i really missed ms teo even when she was right in front of me. ): i burst out crying on the track lol. sigh. i knew on the first day of sec 4 that she would be a good mentor.
so i'm going to send her off if i can. i mean i wouldnt go alone but if the others are i would too. i mean i wouldnt care about being late or missing attire checks.
even though i did cut my hair! not for attire check though - i think this hairstyle has a higher chance of getting picked on cos its not tieable. haha. i was just possessed. yeh.
okay i'm BROKE. because i cut my hair. meeeeeeeee pay me back. :(:(:(
my mom is threatening to deduct my phonebill excess from my pocket money. #1 - i think my dad will still give me the correct amount. #2 - i thought it would only exceed cos i was sms-ing my friend a lot and i normally dont reply smses at all much less send them. #3 - in the end, the smses were all free. it was the talk time that exceeded. and i only call my dad. and occasionally my friends. very occasionally. GAH.
lol. whatever. welcome home. you've been missed. nay.
Labels: rants
Today's not exactly the best day ever.
But as always, welcome to this little life of mine. Sports day was great - I mean things could've been worse. At least I didn't have to
walk 400m. How embarassing that would've been, haha. Well not that I would've minded if I really didn't have a choice. I just didn't reaaaaally fancy having to do something she requested me to
not do. Like run a relay. Well it's okay, they did fine and got a decent 5 points. There's nothing wrong with that.
It's just that if you happen to find someone who can run faster than me and you can work with better (honestly, that's about the whole world) then please do go ahead and swap me out. I'm not exactly your everyday Miss I-want-to-run-till-I-drop-dead. Just
don't expect me to run for you as though I will actually listen to you. BAAAAKA. :D
Anyway. I managed to convince myself that I should come home tonight instead of staying hostel. And I'll find my way to violin class tomorrow. Thanks for all the trouble Dad. And Mom. And Dr Wong. And anybody else who's ever believed I had any drop of ability in me.
And Dr Teo's being really kind. I'm not sure if it's because he's given up on me, but he says I'll do good for aural and sight-reading. Haha LOL just because I have no choice but to sing normally in his class (because he will most certainly lock me out in his living room with his evil cat if I decide to croak my high notes), he keeps telling me I'm one of the best at aural. Then again, it's probably because all his grade 7 students are probably under the age of 6. Okay, so that's slightly exaggerated. But yeh well, although I managed to save myself by playing sight-reading decently (according to him, again - I think I will so freak out and die for the actual sight-reading), he was probably going to pick me up by my collar and throw me out of his house when he heard my scales. ERMMM. Haha. Hi? You mean we have to play chromatic contrary motion that
doesn't begin on C and E? Hehe okay. It got pretty bad that he asked me to bring
the Cramer so he can check on my technique next lesson. Now, where on earth is my Cramer?
On a happier note (HAHA PUN. =\), my pieces are going pretty fluently. I've actually finally hit the recommended/required tempo after months of slow practise. I just can't seem to play anything softer than forte for Schumann though. Okay, I will work harder because my parents brought me to eat Sakura. :) Not that I like it a lot - We, as a family (disregarding The Brother And His Girlfriend, of course not that she was
ever a part of my family) have decided that buffets are not friendly to us. My mom thinks I have tape worms. And after attending Bio class, I am even more convinced that I have tape worms. You can er, ask Eunice what Ms Koh said the symptoms were. Haha. Well yeh, Sakura is okaaaay. Or maybe it's just this bad day that made me too tired to appreciate the food.
Well if my Dad didn't suggest going there, I would've been eating hostel dinner. You
know which one seemed more of an attractive choice.
Okay so I have violin lesson tomorrow. Something tells me I ought to be practising every hour of every day because it's all I can do to get a decent grade this coming exam. I'll make good use of the national day holidays. Especially since. Well, fill in the blanks. _________________
Well I'm certainly not giving up just because people think I can't do it. :)
And did I mention how interesting Sidwyn's music ambassador logo is? It's like, the er.. most interesting thing I've seen today. Partly because today sucked. Somehow the idea of him and photoshop don't really go but I think it's sinking in slowly. :) You did well. Haha WELL so the poor kid decided to join our group for the.. genre thing. And requested hiphop. Well done. You can do the morning announcement. AND dance to hiphop music. And rap. And do what you have to do. We'll be behind you all the way, pretty literally.
On the topic of groups, we're short of one person for our Tioman group. It's currently at Eunice, Jasmine, Jo and erm Jasmine's friend Benedict. How on earth did he get convinced to join us?! Haha well yeh we need another guy. Or girl. But of course, we don't want Benedict to feel left out so any guy who doesn't have a group please be kind and grace our little group with your presence. (Seriously, it's your only chance to be in the same group as Eunice!! :D)
Because of Tioman I can't go for the night cycling thing with the other Jr Cats. ): I'm sorry guys, I'll miss it, like I missed the hike. I really wish I could go.
Oh God I need to count paramecium. Soon. Fast. Oh,
distractions. Well.
At least someone's gone. For a while.
I hate it when something slowly becomes a constant in my life and when it's suddenly gone, things just feel weird.
Erm,
a lot of my friends have gone away for the national day holidays, huh. Erm. Please enjoy yourself and remember Singapore's your er home! Haha, I actually brought up the topic of migrating / my parents retiring to another country at Sakura just now. And started complaining loudly about how kids grow up in this stressful country and study all day long and go to NUS if they make it and work here and travel overseas once a year at max and think Singapore's about half the world. How insightful. Yes, I totally want my kids to grow up like that. Totally.
I
do love Singapore and it's wonderful education system. But sometimes I think there's got to be a better way. Oh and I completely
saw my 2nd Best Friend's orchestra score in the music room that day. :D If I Were A Rich Man...! Haha, I completely cracked up. I need to photocopy scores before the erm, 17th? Haha. But I can't step into the library - I'll have to cough up my $50 fines!
I'd like to see
Mister Eric Lau solve this dilemma for me. Given that my wallet has no extra funds set aside for library fines.
Talking about funds, assuming I can live on 30$ a week (yes Jo go on dreaming) It will take me a grand total of 20 weeks to save $1000. I'm not sure, but my parents didn't exactly say no when I proposed that I go on a ski trip alone. Well I'm
right, okay? They won't ski anyway so it'll be a waste of money. I should go alone. HAHA THE BENEFITS OF GROWING UP. :)
Currently the plan is that I'll fly off to
Japan (I can't go there, I'll spend all my money on things that are NOT skiing ): ) somewhere and have a nice holiday on my own. I miss skiing. It's been what, TWO AND A HALF YEARS. Yes, go on, another few months and I won't even know how to walk in them. Yes, after APs. :)
Haha March 8th is a super important day. And March 18th of course cos it's my birthday. Waaaaait if Sidwyn's birthday is on the 19th doesn't that mean he has the same birthday as Joshua? Well. Haha. I saw Joshua at church the other day. I didn't think about it earlier, but Gareth says his hair (which is completely dyed) is very beng. Lol.
HAHA WELL. Jo and her bombastic plans. Whatever that word even means. Long blog post too. Cos I haven't done so in ages. Well. I really do miss skiing.
My friend has a friend called Kenta.
Labels: random, rants, school
hur
Spider solitaire's not that fun, you know.
It seems I only play it during certain seasons.
I don't want that. It's only supposed to be a.. "I was free during the holidays so I'm doing that" thing. Oh well. That's because the person that's supposed to be talking to me (in an ideal situation) isn't talking to me. If only.
I'm scared actually. So I keep trying to control. I just have a bad personality. :( I hope you'll forgive me when anything happens. Friends are more important than Jo. I mean it's the majority wins kinda thing.
I don't know what I'm talking about. Do you?
BTW this is my laptop back. It's supposed to come back on Saturday but its Tuesday and they're already done. They changed the whole keyboard. :( Whatever la.
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